today’s society…

today’s society doesn’t understand the word “no”. this world we live in now, is so fucked. everyone just doesn’t care about anyone but themselves anymore. their own pleasure, even if the feeling isn’t mutual. if somebody wants something, they go through anything to get it. even if it’s just what they want and not both of you. at 14 years old- yeah, fourfuckingteen, my own sisters boyfriend raped me. i was with my friend and we went to what was supposed to be a party, but when we got there after getting picked up, it was just us two, my sister’s sick boyfriend, and his friend who was also in a relationship. that itself is fucked up. even if it were to be consensual, that’s cheating. and with family? that’s so fucking low.. i brought my dog with me incase anyone tried getting with me and i didn’t want it. i could just be like sorry i have my dog. well apparently i was wrong. he took my puppy from me and pulled me away from the bonfire near the woods that i have to drive past all the time and get reminded of it.. i said no so many times and tried everything i could to prevent it. but still to this day i blame myself for not preventing it and letting it happen to me. it’s my fault that he’s a sick individual even though i know that and what happened to me was nowhere near my fault. i was too scared to do anything about it after because i knew people would just say i was lying about it for attention or just didn’t like him or whatever. well, as you can see, i do have my reasons for not liking him. real reasons. not made up little lies. a little over a year later, i went to the police about it, but at that point there was no evidence and it was basically just his word against mine. a he said she said, where obviously he won’t admit to what he did to me and probably so many other poor girls that don’t deserve to go through that kind of pain and experience. i built up all that courage to tell someone and got shit on. called a liar by my own family, told i just wanted attention. i lost family because of it. a sister i once called my best friend is now a complete stranger to me. it’s something that you never forget and it sticks with you forever. years later when you find a guy that you truly love and they feel the same about you, you’ll even have trouble looking into his eyes without seeing the face of who took your innocence. what’s even scarier is when you know it’s happening, when you’ve experienced it before and it happens again. you feel even shittier every day about it because if it happened once why would you let yourself get into another situation like that and have it happen again? it’s my fault. but it’s not and i just can’t bring myself to realize that. when i was 16 i was with my friend, her boyfriend and one of his friends. we told her mom we were going to the movies, but instead we decided to go night fishing.. when we got there another friend showed up too and we realized we needed bait. there was only enough room for four of us in the car we were taking to get bait. then it was his truck and her boyfriends truck, both of which only seat two people. so i was told to stay at the fishing spot with the friend. i was getting anxious already before they even left. then, i was alone in the dark with a stranger where nobody would hear my screams. he started trying to kiss me and he turned the lights off. i texted my friend telling him to call me and pretend it was an emergency, but it was too late. he was already forcing himself into me and my friend didn’t get the message until later.. after it had already happened. it’s all embedded into my head so clearly and i get flash backs every day. in the memories, i see his face. his ugly, scumbag face. it’s dark and he’s telling me it’ll be okay, and i hear myself say no. but i don’t feel myself say it. i’m numb, as if i’m not even in my own body.. i cant feel myself yelling and kicking. it’s as if my cries meant i wanted him to keep going. the flashbacks are almost as bad as the actual experience. they make me feel even more at guilt for not trying harder. i let it happen. i didn’t stop it. i could’ve done more. but in the moment, i couldn’t have done more. i couldn’t think straight, i couldn’t function. the only words that i could get out of my mouth were “no” and “stop”. i couldn’t come to realization that there was a door right next to me i could’ve just opened and ran to get help. but i couldn’t have. he was holding me down. it can’t be my fault.

for anyone who’s gone through similar situations, or anything like this. it’s not your fault. you may live the rest of your life thinking you could’ve done more and it’ll haunt you every single day. but it wasn’t. what they did to you was not your fault at all. you tried everything in your power at the moment to stop it. don’t go over in your head what you could’ve done or should’ve done. because you couldn’t have. you were too scared to think and they should have respected the word no. it only has one meaning and they should’ve understood it. it’s not that hard to comprehend, it’s simple and only two letters. no.

i didn’t write this to get everyone’s pitty. i couldn’t care less about that. i did it so anyone who’s struggled with that knows they’re not alone and there’s someone they can talk to about it. so when someone tells me to take this down it’s too personal, i’m not going to. because other people who are struggling with this need to know it wasn’t their fault either.

i’m always just a message away. if you need someone to talk to i don’t care if it’s 2am and you’re a complete stranger, i’ll be there for you. i know what it’s like. but you never know what someone’s been through. don’t be selfish and blame them for it, listen.

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The Best Succulents

Today, I wanted to make a post solely about succulent plants and their benefits. Succulents are my favorite type of plant, not only because I think they’re really cute, but also because of the way they can improve your health!

Aloe Vera- One of the most commonly known succulent plants is aloe vera. Aloe can repair dead skin cells, and can also be used in conditioners to leave your hair looking silky and shiny. It also promotes hair growth, and as you probably know, it has many healing properties.

Euphorbia Tirucalli- This succulent aids in asthma, colicness, coughs, and also has antioxidant activity like most other succulent plants.

Echeveria- This plant benefits your skin, hair, and makes air quality more purified. It is also very versatile.

Hippie Lifestyle

Personally, I’ve been trying to become more in tune with myself, be more natural, and be at peace. I researched a lot for this post and found LOTS of good tips and ideas! I’m here today to share them with you!

YOGA- Yoga is a great way to get in tune with yourself both physically and mentally. The word yoga translates to mean “to unite”. It’s a very calming exercise that promotes flexibility, improves your mood, helps relax you, and has many more positive effects!

AROMATHERAPY- For this, you’ll need essential oils made from natural materials. You can use aromatherapy for spiritual, hygienic, and therapeutic purposes. Different scents provide different benefits. It can help relieve stress, uplift your mood, help with anxiety, etc.

MEDITATION- Meditation induces relaxation, energy levels, and forgiveness. It helps you to clear your mind and bring you to a better place in your mental state. There are physical and mental benefits such as boosting serotonin, lowers high blood pressure, increases creativity, and promotes inner peace.

JOURNALISM- Writing down how you feel can help you so much. It’ll help you understand yourself better or a situation you’re going through. Putting it on paper allows you to be more honest with yourself since it’s not talking to another person.

CHAKRAS- I made a post in the past about balancing your chakras, but I ended up deleting it. There’s a lot of information that goes along with this and I’ll probably make a post about it again. Chakras are energies throughout your body, and if they get blocked by negative energy it could cause physical and emotional ailments. Being in balance with your chakras helps boost confidence and improves your mood.

REIKI- This is a form of healing by life force energy. You use your hands and guide all the energy into your palms and move it into the body to promote healing. This is a complex medicine alternative that takes lots of practice.

SUCCULENTS- Certain plants help to clear and purify the air around you, and they look beautiful, too!

INCENSE- By burning certain scents of incense, you can become more relaxed and peaceful. Calm down after a long day and let your senses take over.

That’s all for this post! I hope it helps you and you enjoyed reading it. I plan on making more posts like this, let me know what you think!

Anorexia Nervosa

Anorexia nervosa is an eating disorder characterized by weight loss, or difficulties keeping a healthy weight. Many people with anorexia have a distorted body image, and usually restrict the number of calories they take in, along with having certain foods they refuse to eat. Some people with the disorder also compulsively exercise or purge. Anorexia can affect all different kinds of people. The disorder usually begins during adolescence.
To be diagnosed with anorexia the following criteria must be met:

1. Restriction of energy intake relative to requirements leading to a significantly low body weight in the context of age, sex, developmental trajectory, and physical health.

2. Intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat, even though underweight.

3. Disturbance in the way in which one’s body weight or shape is experienced, undue influence of body weight or shape on self-evaluation, or denial of the seriousness of the current low body weight. 

Even if all these criteria are not met, an eating disorder may still be present. 

Antibiotic Cleanse

I’m one of those people that’s not necessarily a germophobe, but I’m terrified of parasites. This DIY cleanse gets rid of nasty infections in your body and is an all natural remedy, also, it’s very easy to make! The recipe includes ingredients that help calm inflammation and help your immune system.

 

What You’ll Need:

  • 3 teaspoons of honey
  • 3 cups of apple cider vinegar
  • 2 chili peppers
  • 2 teaspoons of turmeric
  • 2 teaspoons of horseradish
  • 1/4 cup of garlic
  • 1/4 cup of onion
  • 1/4 cup of ginger

 

Directions:

Put the apple cider vinegar in a bowl and mix all other ingredients separately in another bowl. Pour the mixture and apple cider vinegar into a jar and seal it closed, then shake well to mix everything together. For two weeks let this sit in a cool dark spot and then strain it through gauze.

 

Each day take 1 teaspoon of the remedy, this is enough to protect you from bacteria and injections. The flavor will be strong, but that’s what fights the infections!

 

Hopefully this helps some of you guys! I highly recommend doing this!

 

-XOXO Casey